Ina New Light

Verse 1:
My life was crumbeling around me
Always asking the man above for a sign,
Felt like the ending of times, but
Now everything feels fine
For the first time in my life
All my rainy days are now clear skies
Lifted up so high
Hypnotized by your light
And by the look in your eyes, you were
Holding the faite of my entire world in your hands,
My heart was drowning in the tides
Until you came and rescued me,
Before my colorless hue became "dyed".

Chorus:
If I could sing,
I'd make the melodies mine
Instead this is poetry in the making
As I recite these rhymes
Seein' everything,
Ina New Light

Verse 2:
Stranded on a deserted Island
No food or shelter, and
Just enough sun to get-a-tan
But no sunscreen to shield the rays
Skin was burning, The peals enraged
I was hostile, as I continued to write this gospel
Cause everything I was experiencing was awful
Stuck on the last note of the saddest song
'Till you came and proved me wrong
Now' feelin like the end of an epic journey
Standin' on the highest mountain top in Prague

Chorus:
If I could sing,
I'd make the melodies mine
Instead this is poetry in the making
As I recite these rhymes
Seein' everything,
Ina New Light

Verse 3:
The sea has parted
No need for jargon
One date in, and
Felt as strong as Spartan
Through your nerves
And despite my problems
You broke the vest
From my heart thats hardened
Ya know, the ones that guarded
Still can't believe what's been started
Wading through the depths uncharted
Through the touch of your hand
I knew my sentence had been forever pardoned...

Different Sides of Me

Verse 1:
Drifting down the under-toe
Floating up the streams
Walking down the sands
As the pebbles massage your feet
You see yourself lost at sea
While you're still standing on the beach
For all we know, This could be,
The different sides, of me.

Chorus:
A secret life
Buried underneith
Coming out with the darkness
Forced to believe
The good in us all, comes with deceit.

Verse 2:
Every sentence begins with,
Hello and ends with good-bye
Running and walking, at the same time
One step forward, then two steps back
The only way I've ever known to act
Dreaming while im awake,
Living in my dreams
For all we know, this could be,
The different sides, of me.

Chorus:
A secret life
Buried underneith
Coming out with the darkness
Forced to believe
The good in us all, comes with deceit.

Bridge:
The cloth isn't long enough to be cut from it,
We all can't be angels and demons, Some of us are both,
None of us are perfect..

Verse 3:
It's hard to understand,
When the pain feels so good and alive
Happiness doesnt seem real, seems weird
Caring about everything, and nothin', at the same time
Everything seems foggy, but my eyes are clear
Reaching out to something that seems familiar
Fear is the closest thing near, to the sorrow
Im running out of faces in the mirror
What reflection will I see tommorrow?
Vindicated from my shell,
Yes, I'm aware I'm unwell, but
For all we know, this could be,
The different sides, of me.

Chorus:
A secret life
Buried underneith
Coming out with the darkness
Forced to believe
The good in us all, comes with deceit.

Perfect To Me

You're the only one I see
Even in a crowded sea, of people
Your the only good I see,
When all I see is evil,
You're an open highway
The ideal crusing street
A racetrack in the heavens
So peaceful in belief, and
Even outside my dreams,
You are perfect to me.

When you wear no make up
Your even sexier to me
Nothing can touch your natural foundation
No substitute for true beauty,
Even when your moody,
You're stubborn, yet sincere
A pain in the ass sometimes
But everyday I wish you were here
Cause you're the rarest treasure to find
And I've been lost too, many of times
Searching for a key,
Which is why your perfect to me.

If such a thing is true,
God did right by you
And i'll never let you forget
The perfect radiant creation,
I knew from the first second I met you,
You're every mans wonderland
And John Mayor will understand,
Why I ressurrect his line from the sands,
Of the nearest paradise,
Where I imagine our lives,
In holding each others hands
Like bear hugs around a tree,
You are perfect to me.

You saved me,
I had almost given up on livin'
Until you made me feel somethin'
That I had been missin', and
Finally, my heart was nervous
Cause on the surface,
You were my purpose,
And ill serve it everlasting,
But we may not always get along, but
I'll even let you be right, even when your wrong
Cause sometimes we may disagree,
But this is exactly why your perfect, to me.

You yell but your laughter
Drowns out all the pain
I can tell that it matters,
Seeing your insides rain,
So im sorry Im a screw up,
And made you feel that way
Just shut my mouth and kiss me,
Whenever I have to much to say,
Cause your so precious my dear,
My love, my friend,
And ill be here for you
Until the very end
Cause you are perfect to me.

Careful What You Wish For

Verse 1:
Sittin' stressin'
Worried about the future,
Cause of the past,
Always has me second guessin'
Overanalyze everything
Trust no one or nothin'
Maybe this curse has been a blessin',
But I've lost all faith, but I wish I had it
Lost my prayers, but I wish I hadn't
Cause the voices never shut off
They're an insult to injury
It's like they take all the good things
And make them into my enemy
Can't enjoy the moment,
Without reassurance of the pleasantry.
Maybe its just a chemical imbalance,
That I suffer from mentally,
But I can't let it get to the next stage of extremity.

Chorus:

So be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do with it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

Verse 2:
I was losing my freedom
There was no where for me
To not go and be seen
And just go and be me
And there was no in-between
You either loved it or hated me
Now I know that he died for our sins,
But I didnt ask 'em to,
How would you do? If I took a bullet for you
Would you start to worship me?
For eternity? I dont think so...
I just dont get it, I believe in a higher power
But im not sure I meant it
or meant that, or meant this
It's all just confusing when your thoughts are so relentless. 
They press against the brain,
Someone please stop 'em, they're driving me insane
I dont feel his prescence
I dont feel is love
I dont hear his essence
And all the churches do is shove
Im uncomfortable with what they say
It all sounds make believe,
But I just wanna feel like it'll all be ok,
I want my mind at ease.

Chorus:

Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do with it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

Verse 3:
This isn't what I wished for
This isn't how I envisioned it
Pain to the point of imprisonment
Thought this shit would be different
I just wanted a little bit, but it
Turned me into a hypocrite, but
Where do they come from?
My EEG's are normal,
They only thing that helps me,
Are CD's and epidurals
Transferrance to Transferral
A Nuerological disorder
In chronological order
Would result in bein lost in his tracks
To leaving my trust rope shorter,
And I've already told you guys a thousand times
In these rhymes, I may not be right in the mind
But whether I believe or not, if he exist
Then he's on my side
And its been one hell of  ride...

Chorus:

Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do with it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

 

Circles

Verse 1:
It's like a rollercoaster ride, With all the ups and downs
One minute your on ground, next your going around
Hands up and you dont know why, the loops at the speed of sound
You feel free for a second, then feel like its all crashing down
You scream as your hair hits your face as you see it's brown,
Only thing I know, Is that it's gravity holding us down
And at the top of it all, you look over the entire town
And you realize how small you are in this worldly bound,
Trapped as one entity, like a wind up doll being wound,
Are we really in control? Or shall we ignore the surrounds?
If theme park rides had a rearview pointed towards the sky,
We'd see the world passing by, not in front of us, but behind...

Chorus:
You just keep running,
Circles in my head
When the outsides sunny,
My insides dead
And you just keep running,
Circles in my head

Verse 2:
Speaking of circles, you see the ones beneath the eyes?
Is sleeping just a waste of time? When nothing appears fine?
Your thoughts are unpredictable, they're always on trial
Had god blessed this broken road, why have I been walking for miles
All those memories, I guess I missed thoughs,
Do we ever get what we wish for?
Do we ever get what we pray for?
Standing in a crowded empty room behind seven closed doors,
Music coming from every direction, I can hear the severed chords,
Broken strings play within their means, pain has left them sore

Chorus:
You just keep running,
Circles in my head
When the outsides sunny,
My insides dead
And you just keep running,
Circles in my head

Verse 3:
They can take the cloths, off my back
They can take my money, dont care about that
Just dont take my words, it's all I got
You can take my faith, it ain't worth alot,
Cause this is how I do,
Paranoid like Howard Hughes,
And like your satellite radio, Im serious
I'll be the end of discussion, and thats period
Cause in the face of defeat, ill decline
And redefine what it's like to grab the hands of time,
And redesign that Monaco, Cause Im still in my prime,
Back and forth like circles, can't even think straight
They didnt add up, even with life at stake
We're all in the same boat, tryna stay afloat in the moment,
This time around, im gonna own it...

Epic Evolution

Intro:
If you're like me, you have trouble moving on from the past,
And continue to live in it, despite you knowing the consequences of such,
Sometimes it takes the write words to spark your determination,
And suddenly, instantly, you become inspired,
To not only grab hold of your issues, and vanquish them
Not for them, Not for her, Not for anyone
But yourself, in the search of future happiness,
All alone, on the conquest of epic evolutions...

Verse 1:
As I walk through the valley of the shadow of doubt
The root origins planted deep to defeat the drought
I'm takin back to the old days
Without a drawn-out plan to route about,
But now, the age of evolution is amongst us
Forsakin' paths of the less Riteous
To slay any biblical giant,
As I David your mythical Goliath
For this new commencement is on-set
Showtimes to offset and onslaught the gauntlet
So cliche but Imma crash this new beginning
Accomplished another perfect mistake,
Shown my way to another bridge to take,
Even though its always the same road I stake,
Constructing a dam in case the river breaks,
Like the way the words natalie like water in black swan lake,
They Shake like earthquakes,
Destined to slither up and over-snake, Drake

Chorus:
In Pursuit of,
An Epic Evolution
The process of,
Letting Go,
Of the way I've always been,
An Epic Evolution

Verse 2:
Ever feel like giving up, Like nothing has its worth
And sometimes you just feel, Like being 6 feet under dirt
The way you arent feeling, Is the way that you deserve
To be treated by the occupance, Amongst you on this earth
The poison in your brain, It changes on reality
To miscontrue your thoughts, as to what is truly happening
You feel ur walls closing in, your trapped inside a room
With no sunlight inside, to let your inner flower bloom
With thoughts of negativity, you've lost that silver lining
You bang ur head against the wall, just try and clear your mind
But none of this is working, your suffer inflicts of pain
It helps just for a moment, so you do it all again
Scared to let the people know, you try to hide your scars
With smiles on your face, with pain inside your heart
No one understands you, You're ready for goodbye
I hope this song reaches you, Before you end your life...

Chorus:
In Pursuit of,
An Epic Evolution
The process of,
Letting Go,
Of the way I've always been,
An Epic Evolution

Verse 3
Maybe I've been way to high
A star up in the sunlite sky
Astronomy of the planets in the universe
Reflect the oceans waves along the tides
Or maybe I've been to blind
To understand the brail and the mimes
It's all I can do to take one day at a time
Cause the futures gettin' intertwined
With the plans I've set out to design
Through hard work and determination
Struggles and perseverance, escapes, an
Ancient turn of events
Of reluctance consequence
And un-nurtured circumstance
Lets stack the hand you've been dealt
Sittin on the couch aint gonna cut it
No matter how lazy you've felt,
Turn your cold into warm,
Even if its shop worn,
Fighting monsters like in Space Jam,
Can't be afraid to be adored,
When you hear the sirens calling
Dont ignore the horn,
Lets not get so lost we lose our identity,
Yeah I said it before, like Jason Bourne
So in essence we can no longer mourne,
The swords that have uplifted the spirits
Bite down and bear it, like it's a carrot.

Chorus:
In Pursuit of,
An Epic Evolution
The process of,
Letting Go,
Of the way I've always been,
An Epic Evolution

Verse 4:
When I look to the sky
All I hear is hollowed wood
As the forecast passes by,
Lost in L.A, guess thats why they call it Hollywood,
It's been a full day now,
It's official, I accept it
So lets go back to when I was stealin rhymes,
To knee deep in the cement,
Reycled lyrics were line after line, it
Was such an easier time in my mind,
But fuck it, lets accept this extraction
Never been afraid to hide,
One thing that'll never change,
Is me accepting your favorite lies,
This ain't a new hello, and
This aint good-bye
This is not where the story ends
I know we'll never reconcile,
But I can't be the man I've always been
Maybe in time, the skies will collide
The Conclusion, The Finish, The End.

Chorus:
In Pursuit of,
An Epic Evolution
The process of,
Letting Go,
Of the way I've always been,
An Epic Evolution

Verse 5:
Just kidding, one last verse on the way,
I wanna go and give a message to the ones in pain
Gotta keep pushin on cause time could change
Alot of feelings that you try and hold within yourselves
I promise you I only say this to ensure your health
Because your wanted, although sometimes you feel your not
becuase to someone, you might be all they truly got
I think your beautiful in each and every single way,
I only ask of you that you promise me this time you'll stay
Your smart and clever, you know its not worth the tears
We all have bad days, we all have bad years,
But we just strive so take a grip upon my hand,
We'll hop up out this swirl and take a step upon this dry land,
So come and give a hug, you see the sun shinin'
Come now and wipe them tears, theres no more need for cryin'
I promise better days, I promise lifes to come
The life your livin' is a definite precious one,
So when you feel like life isn't living anymore
How could you be ashamed?
Put that hope back in your mind
Dont have to pray for better days,
Cause you're better off alive
We're all better off alive

Outro:
So I let the anger get the best of me,
The demons won, again...
But no more, never again
It's time to control those voices,
And target them, convey them,
Towards something greater,
Because I will come back,
I will come back swinging with the fury of Iron Mike,
With the speed and timing of  Pretty Boy Floyd,
And with the destruction of The Pacman,
Under the art and teachings of Sun Tzu,
With the intelligence of Ghandi,
All wrapped up in one entity,
I may have lost this battle,
But it's time to go Gorilla on this war,
So get out of my way if you can't take the heat.
Because it's coming like a 'roided up flame thrower on speed.