Red Light

Enjoy the moments under the moon,
With no rush to get home
Cause you know she's leaving as soon,
As shes slams the passenger door,
Packs all her things off the floor, while
You're weeping for her forgiveness
You take back every word that was mean,
But the lack of passion from her is so relentless

So you try...to be the better man,
Try to hold on to every second that you can
So you're time left with her will last
Starting new fights just to delay her flight
Why are the streetlights passing by so fast
Faith is tested, the stars align in the sky's night,
As you pray to hit every Stoplight
You pray to hit every Red Light.

You're heart is bruised and left battered
At this point it doesn't even matter
She starts to Flee, you reach out for her arm
You see the look in her eyes, you see the extra harm,
No choice left but to let her go, and as you let her go,
The rain drops, the teardrops, begin, to flow...

So now you're all alone, as you write her a poem
In the form of letter, but it's not gettin any better
Remembering when, you used to read them and loved 'em...
Guess you're to high up now on your totem,
To display nothing but your lack of emotion,
As you stand in the puddle beneath you, as it resembles the ocean

But I tried....to be the bigger man,
Tried to hold on to every second that I can
So you're time left with me would last
Starting new fights just to delay your flight
Why are the streetlights passing by so fast
Faith is tested, the stars align in the sky's night,
As I prayed to hit every Stoplight
I prayed to hit every Red Light.

They say sometimes good-bye is a second chance,
But I'm afraid that this Red Light, was our last dance....

In Search of a Resolution

There's a lot that I don't know
There's a lot that I'm still learning
When I think I'm letting go
I find my body it's still burning

And you hold me down
And you got me living in the past
Come on and pick me up
Somebody clear the wreckage from the blast

But, I'm alive
And I don't need a witness
To know that I survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness
Yeah, I just need light
I need a light in the darkness

In search of a Resolution

And the bars are finally closed
So I try living in the moment
Till the moment it just froze
And I felt sick in my atonement

I could hear the sound
Of your voice still ringing in my ear
I'm going underground
But you'll find me anywhere I fear

Now, I'm alive
And I don't need a witness
To know that I survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness
Yeah I just need light
I need a light in the darkness

In search of a Resolution

What If...?

What if our relationship was a movie, we'd be in the first act
And  you'd be the leading lady, and the theatre would be packed
What if our expressions were a song, we havent even hit the hook
After seeing you the first time, I said "She's got the look"
What if we were a baseball game, we'd still be in the first inning
But I can hear the crowd sreaming as if were both winning
What if our fights were a boxing match, I'd now let you win everytime by KO
Because toe to toe, you're the best, and I want the world to know
What if our first kiss wasn't perfect, then we better start to practice
Cause when our lips meet, my head starts spinning on its axis
What if when our hands first touched there was chemistry, call me a science teacher
Cause all the students in the world could see that you're a keeper,
What if our spark was a fire, then we would be the flame,
And if that fire ever died, now that would be a shame,
What if you were an art gallery, you'd sell out to capacity,
Because your bodies the embodiment of the perfect anatomy,
What if we are what love is, I guess were' still at the L
But I think I can hear cupid calling his army on his cell,
What if every rose has its thorn, then you're worth every prick of skin thats torn, and
What if you already knew what all Ive been through,
You would know exactly why you're all I want to pursue, so
What if you were the 9th world wonder?
And if falling for you is down, then I'm already going under, you see..
If you were an earthquake, you'd be the greatest catastrophe,
Because you've mended my broken parts that were once inside of me,
To whom it may concern, Happy Anniversary...

-Lance

Tale of Gatsby

Verse 1 (Sing):
I left your ring on the table, wait
No, it's buried inside of my closet
Locked in a box thats not able
To open the life of a goddess
Living the life of a fable, strong but unable
Turned out more scrambled than eggs
Lost in a television world without cables
Why do they have so much trouble being thankful?
I know im not the nicest but at least im grateful...

Chorus:
I'm saving you, from saving me
From all the tails, and misery
Im fighting thin, head worried out
Pressured mind with uncensored mouth
Yet I keep on dreamin, its real
As I pray for the nightmares to heal...
When I wake up what will the mirror...reveal?
The Tale of Gatsby

Verse 2 (Sing):
Hide behind libraries,
of open books with no pages
Each empty word gets a lil scarier,
A blank story for the ages, as I'm
Watchin the hands of time tick,
On these five thousand dollar watches,
As the sounds they make are getting softer with each click,
I need fifteen arms to carry all the boxes, and
It's as if im walking on a tight rope
Juggeling everything on one toe,
And if I take one mistaken step,
I'm bound to fall to the ground below.

Chorus:
I'm saving you, from saving me
From all the tails, and misery
Im fighting thin, head worried out
Pressured mind with uncensored mouth
Yet I keep on dreamin, its real
As I pray for the nightmares to heal...
When I wake up what will the mirror...reveal?
The Tale of Gatsby
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Bridge (Talking):
Only solution I can seek
Mashin pedals, as in the rear-view I sneak a peak
Of life in the mirror, as it's getting smaller in the distance
And the music's getting louder, the faster I go,
I never needed an argument, just comprehension of your listen

Verse 3 (Rap):
Those suckas tried to bury me
Ended up havin' to carry me
Middle finger to the reaper,
Cause there ain't no scarin' me
Apparently, they dont understand who I am
A troubled man, hundread grand in my pants
Whippin' dropheads to hardtops, 57 Maybachs
Maserati's, Ferrari's, thats the money I play by
Presidents cop me, imagine if I stayed down
Stay shinin and make them haters pull they shades out
Cause when tragedy strikes, I struck back
Looking for me to roll over and die? who does that?
They left me for dead, but I'll come back to life,
Till then, ill be tearin' it up in the afterlife,

Chorus:
I'm saving you, from saving me
From all the tails, and misery
Im fighting thin, head worried out
Pressured mind with uncensored mouth
Yet I keep on dreamin, its real
As I pray for the nightmares to heal...
When I wake up what will the mirror...reveal?
The Tale of Gatsby

Wanted Needs

Fixtures hang upon the cielings
Switching on and off panel those feelings
When all is grey, black and whites all you see
Yet that trouble keeps followin' me...
Hiding behind locked doors
Looking out through the window pains
Griev-in', has left me nothing but shame
Reachin' all wants, easily succeeded
As each plan of action is reached, its defeated
Thats not a shot against my courage,
But needs confide my pour-age, and
The images portrayed, its not everything, but a damn shame
When the witnesses, run away, and you're left without a thing, but a chain
That you're father left behind, that his father and his father, stood on the front line
They were' willin' to die for us, shot and wounded for us
Up in the hospital, as they burned down the whole forrest
Pandamonium in the making, earthquakes a shakin'
Sound asleep, sleep walking, but nothin keeps you from wakin'
Cause those swollen nightmares, are better than reality
Takin back to the good days, dreamin of nostalgia, we
Will not be defeated, better off depleted as the suns temperature rises
We get heated, as the dark in us neals in seats we see it hypnotise us
A hero beneath the shadowing depths
Haunted my motivations, nonexistence left
Conquered right by all, but failing every test
Its un-imaginable, seeing creation of such a mess,
So lets just put it to rest, and strive for nothin' but the best...

My Confessions

Hey you, it's me again.  Its been a few weeks since we last spoke, maybe longer.  Time seems to stand alone as it continues to pass by without any progression.  My fascination with watches ease some sort of obsessive compulsions, yet I realize all the hands of time are wrong.  Continuely having to reset them to keep time in a lapse.  Speed has always been a commodity of mine.  Fast in track in field, Quick hands in boxing, and quick thinking, wittier than the rest, most of the time.  Yet maybe I was moving to fast, for as time slowed down, I kept going.  My words came out faster than my brain could even comprehend.  There were no brakes capable of stopping me.  Not even 14 inch rotors with 6 piston calipers could stop the speed in which I was going.  But time was slowing, as I could not stop. I would not stop...My Confessions. 

So many times, I felt you in my arms, and it was better than the movies.  Better than any lyrics I could write on a piece of paper, albeit a keyboard in today's technologically advanced world.  The pieces to the puzzle were finally coming together, until an earthquake of disaster came and tore it apart.  Piece by piece the images, the parts, the puzzle, it was ripped to bits.  Without a chance of starting over from the wreckage that ensued.  To many missing pieces.  Having to put it together by myself from scratch, hitting rock bottom, slipping as the ground was covered in gasoline.  I burned myself in the flames that I lit, without even needing a match. Turning me into a savage beast, trapped in self loathing clothes.  I couldnt fix it.  I wasn't getting better.  The voices would not step unless the headphones were on or you were there to comfort my obsessive compulsions.  But I couldnt do it to them anymore. You see this isn't for you, this is for me now.  The music is going to have to be enough.  The boxing will have to erase the demons that try and crack my iron jaw.  The speed will have to tunnel my visions and keep me focused as I fight, alone.  My Confessions.

No apologies.  I dont want to be forgiven.  I dont need you're luck. Yea Im a basket case.  I may be a little bit crazy.  But I can't stop the thoughts.  I can't shut off this brain of mine.  The membranes are damaged and  my leisions inside cause delusional illusions that create nightmar-ish fantasies.  While the unknown future awaits, I can't take it.  I can't help but wonder and worry whats to come.  Its so much that I can't even bare it.  It's so hard watching someone unravel right in front of you, as you look in the mirror and can't stand the person you've become.  With no control.  I can't imagine what it looks like from the outside, and all the pillages ive causesd.  I can't take it.  My hearts become frozen, sometimes it dont even feel like its beats.  So expect no apologies from me.  Even though im sorry.  Makes no sense, I know...My Confessions. 

An open book full of empty pages. Striking similar to that of the Great Gatsby.  The man with everything, yet nothing at all.   Slowly dying inside.  So passionate for ones love, so passionate for her.  So much he'd die for her, so much he'd go to the ends of all thats possible to become that hero they yearn for so much.  But he couldnt be the hero that they needed him to be.  So in source I lived long enough to become the villian, from the script of Christopher Nolan, and Jay-Z's reprint.  But if the story always needs a villian.  There can be no hero without one.  So ill choose to be that, in order to save the ones around me from anymore harm, from anymore pain, from anymore anguish.  The yelling has to stop, the tantrums must go, and the ups and downs must level out, but will they ever?  I dont know.  But i'd rather do it in my lonesome than put anyone else through it anymore.  They deserve better, even when the good me is better than all of you, the other side, the one that I can't control, is worse than anything you could imagine.  Bruce Wayne becomes Bane.  The thoughts that run through my head, what im capable of in those states, in those episodes, in those mistaken moments, they'd never forgive me.   So I run, into the darkness, alone, as I repeat, to save them, to set them free, to set you, my love...free....of me...My Confessions.

Redemption

Verse 1:
Time to back up,
But never back down,
Change the pace, Rope a dope,
Then knock em out the next round,
Pull a sandburg and throw it on the ground,
As the crowd, around, awes in astonishment
At this accomplisment, Meant to calm it,
With hands of rawk fist, from the lips of a profet

Hook:
Redemption isn't contemplating throwin' in the towel,
Riddance of ones entire life pension
But quittin' aint no option
Redemption is over the horizon

Verse 2:
I'll go to war with the entire world
And come out on top,
Not a thing they can say to make me stop
The dark side of evil almost won this tragedy,
but it'll never, ever, over cast over me,
With thunderstorms anymore, of uncertainty,
As I devour every hour, these voices disguised cowards
Showerin' me with towers of ashed peddled flowers,
Im tellin yall can keep yelling,
but bet your ass I can scream louder,
Dice these flames with a bucket of fresh flounder,
Make a meal out of this meat,
This beefs left me grounded

Hook:
Redemption isn't contemplating throwin' in the towel,
Riddance of ones entire life pension
But quittin' aint no option
Redemption is over the horizon

Bridge:
If yall only knew,
How many times I've counted the words that I've said wrong

If yall only knew,
How I try so so hard, to refuse to let it all be gone

Verse 3:
No longer will I continue to sin
With a shit eatin' grin,
Thats not who I really am, but
With the right people in my corner,
I will win the toughest fight of my life
Can't land the right punch, if the timing ain't right
So I plant my feet in the ground, and continue to grow
If they wanna go at it dirty, I can thrown an elbow
It dont matter what you throw, this jaw will never shatter
Convinced that all that useless chatter, Insist I can't win this battle,
As I pillage through the village as the mad hatter, and I
May have to hit the canvas first in order to get back up, and choose
The right shoes, the right path, the right punch, cause I will not lose...

Hook:
Redemption isn't contemplating throwin' in the towel,
Riddance of ones entire life pension
But quittin' aint no option
Redemption is over the horizon

No Time For Last Good-Bye's

Intro:

Man its been a long day, Stuck thinkin about it

Driving on the freeway, Wondering if I really tried everything I could

Not Knowing If I should try a little harder

Man its been along  night, Just sitting here, trying not to look back

Still lookin at the road we never drove on

Wondering if the one I choose was the right one

And im scared to death that there wont be another life like this.

Verse 1:

This institution of intuition has imprisoned this anxiety, inside of me

Blinded by the curtains, Guess that’s why Marty called it Shutter Island,

Leo, I feel you, Lost in the voices, but quiet in her arms,

I’ll sign my hancock of resignation, its write where I belong,

But, how can you be aware of your surroundings

When you never know what part of reality is real

Some nights I pray to the heavens to be killed

Until your shadow appeared, Lost in a beautiful mind,

Flyin’ through time zones of paranoids skies,

As time never stops, it keeps passing me by,

So slow, ya know?

 Chorus:

Now Im kickin the curb,

Cause you never heard the words you needed so bad

Now Im stuck in the dirt,

Cause I never gave you the things that you needed to have

Verse 2:

If the world ends now, I’ll help tear it down

And come back reborn, In the form of a fighter.

Not a fireman, but still scorched and scorned

And at the very least, I can change the burns with my words

Cause they are all I feel I got

Trust me, These words are all I got

And no one can ever take them away from me

I feel like a puppet , down the evolution of revolutionary road,

As a possible Omega  watches down below,

I hope he’s enjoying his show,  

Chorus:

Now Im kickin the curb,

Cause you never heard the words you needed so bad

Now Im stuck in the dirt,

Cause I never gave you the things that you needed to have

Bridge:

My freedom of speech insist, education is what I’ve been taught

My mother raised me to catch what can be caught

While my father taught me how to never lose a fight,

To never start one, but if one ensues, finish it right

Cause I have no time for  last goodbyes...

Verse 3:

Each day its getting harder to cope

So I look above,  searchin for the love that they speak of

But Ive had enough, I shave just to remove the scruff,

Cause Im already to rough to continue down this road so tough

Please release me from these internal hand cuffs

It’s hard enough to believe, it’s hard enough to trust

Im telling you now, Im pleading to you world,

Im in need of a must before I become crushed…

Cause I must confess, Im only holding on my a thin thin thread

While everyone thinks im the one who got ahead

I constantly unintentionally push the one Id unconditionally wed

And if I ever lost her, my heart would die, my soul would be dead

So Jesus Christ, I’ll even capitalize your name

If you’re listening, fix me before I tear it all down

I know longer want to remain the same insane game,

Im broken lord, I’m in your hands now,

Please, Please, Please, Don’t let us down

Outro:

When did the rain become a storm

When did the clouds begin to form

I've been knocked off course by a natural force

But I'll  be swimming when its gone....

As the tides roll by...

Hey you, its me again...I know it's been awhile since we last spoke but I have a few things I need to get off my chest before I can fall back asleep.  As the thoughts continue to eat at me, dying to find themselves on paper, in a letter to you.  That's right, a good old fashioned letter.  However via a google blog via facebook, it's all the same, and the words still read the same.  So just listen, and no response is needed.  And I know....I'd normally write a song, but this one isn't worth the time to rhyme, and that right there wasn't even on purpose. I'd usually even pretty it up a bit with my extensive vocabulary, but I'm just going to be real with you, and let the words flow as they come out, talking to myself in a non Skitzophrenic state of mind..

As the tides roll by, and the waves wash in, I sit here on this empty balcony in the Bahamas thinking about you.  Wishing you were here to see such a beautiful place, and yet it still doesnt compare to the beauty that I once saw in your eyes.  I miss you, alot in fact. And it's not that I didn't love you.  Because I've never been so much in love with something in my entire life.  No amount of money, cars, cloths, or any material possession could come close to how made you feel inside, when you were there for me.  Even on the brief occassion that that was.

But that's where the story ends.  Because you and I...as alike as we are, we are completely different people.  You see, there was no fight in you, at least not for me.  Me?  I have so much fight in me, i'll die fighting for the things I love, but only if they love me back.  That's just how it works.   Maybe it's because you dont understand what goes on in my head.  Hell...half the time Im discombulated with it all as well.  On the outside, im heaven to the world, but inside burns a raging inferno of hell that sometimes I just can't control.  The drugs help, prescription for those that wonder, but they can't rid me of my heart and the passion that has been lit inside me.

Do I hate you, now? Yes.  Part of me hates you, as much as I love you.  Which is alot by the way.  It's the closest thing to unconditional that you'll ever find from someone that isn't family.  But desertation and abandonment are not in my vocabulary, no irony intended.  This is why you havent heard from me.  That's probabley why you'll never hear from me again.  Not because I wouldnt have fought for every ounce of you, but you wouldnt fight for me, so you dont deserve me fighting for you.  You just arent worth it.  That's not to say you aren't a good person...

I know your a good person, and not everything is meant to be.  But in my eyes, you come off as a coward with the words you used and the gestures you inflicted to me, even in glimpse of the mental illnesses that prevailed.  I'm not using them as an excuse but I dont have complete control at all times.  Whats your excuse?  I know what I said, but you should have known who the real me was, even when I didn't.  Hence the illness, hence the lack of love that you pursued.  What I'd give for you to understand.  Guess they dont teach you everything in Med school.  And thats not a dig at the educational institute, that's a dig at you're persona. 

But as I sit here, I reminsice, of the good times we had. But it's overshadowed by the bad.  I wouldnt trade it for anything because you were the only thing that brought happiness to my life in a time that I really needed it.  But through it all you made my condition worse.  The hands of anxiety tightened around my neck as each sleepless night passed by.  How hard is it to say I love you?  How hard is it to reach out for someones hand.  I'm not a fan of PDA myself, to an extent.  But when you really love someone, you should want the world to know.  Ive seen love in your eyes, and last time I looked, it wasn't there.  I would do anything to see it again, but not from you.  Not now...not after what you did.  I'm sure your reading this, with that confused and pissed off look on your face as your eyes roll, telling yourself that you didn't do anything....and your right, you didn't do anything.  That's the point. 

So I still sit here, feeling the ocean breeze and the sound of the palm trees gently swaying, I'm finally at peace with it all.  It's 3 am here, kinda reminds me of the song by matchbox 20 way back in the day.  And  ironically enough, the song itself is the story of my life.  But im at peace with that.  Ive finally accepted myself, and found the love inside my heart to love myself.  Without you....I'm more confident than ever, or maybe that's the drugs talking, but whatever it is, it's me, somewhere inside here.  Drinking my monster energy drink to compliment the demons inside me, I'm as calm as the storm before it rushes in. 

I was lost in the echo of so many voices that still remain, but im able to focus, able to distract them as reality ensues.  Yes, im still going to have my moments of extreme rage, but what I want to leave you with, as a final statement of understanding.  Have you ever seen me blow up at someone that I didn't love?  Yes, i've gotten pissed off at people but have you seen me turn into that person you saw transform into something seemingly not even human. It only happens to the ones that I love, when I dont feel the same love in return.  I can't be anymore blunt than that about it.  So the split personality exist, the obsessive compulsive tendencies remain, the mood swings, and manic depression and anxiety still eat at me.  But love cures all.  I truly believe that, and as I wait for the beautiful Bahamian sun to rise over the horizon and the shimmer it'll make on the water below, i'll stand over it and see my reflection. 

I'll see the man you'll never get the chance to embrace nor appreciate again.  Will you find better? Probabley, in your eyes at least.  But the reflection that I see, is a man who is going to prove you wrong, the world wrong, and shower the people that I love with as much love as I possibly can.  And as much as I hate to say things like this, batteling through all the things that I have, unable to appreciate the finer things in life due to visions clouded by infliction, I'm still ten times the person you will ever be.  And I think deep down, you know its true.  I'll end with this....You relit a fire inside me, and this one isn't going to burn out, as I focus on it and never forget the last time I saw you, and the last message you sent, and how empty those words were.  My only wish at this point...is that I light a fire inside of you and your trail of ashes bring you everything in life that I would have given you.  Good-bye, and farewell my friend.  As the tides roll by, so do I...hollow as your words were, but completely satisfied with it all for once in my life.

Sincerely,
The road you'll never get to travel on...

Drama at Midnight

Verse 1:
When everything seems fine
It can change, at the drop of a dime
And you are blinded by the darkness
Of the shadows that you speak of
The fears and agony are
Slipping closer to the brink of...

Chorus:
Drama at midnight
Its not about whos right or wrong
I dont want to fight
Leave our worries out of sight
Hush those beautiful lips
Come cuddle up next to me
Girl, I can guarentee
I will love you till my last breath
I will love you beyond my death

Verse 2:
If the tables were turned
You wouldnt even have to ask
Id wash away your fears
Remind that your my last
Remove any questoins
Remove any doubt
Always want to see your eyes
Dry as a drought,
No matter whats at stake
I'll make our love count.

Chorus:
Drama at midnight
I dont want to fight
its not about whos right or wrong
Leave our worries out of sight
Hush those beautiful lips
Come cuddle up next to me
Girl I can guarentee
I will love you till my last breath
I will love you beyond my death

Verse 3:
Lets just lay here and reminisce
About all the good times we seem to miss
Come ill take you back to when we first met
When you knew how much I adored you
And i'd still do anything for you
You're my whole world
My beautiful green eyed, baby girl
With my arms around you tight
See? no need to fight...
I told you I would protect you
From any harm that would ensue...

Chorus:
Drama at midnight
I dont want to fight
its not about whos right or wrong
Leave our worries out of sight
Hush those beautiful lips
Come cuddle up next to me
Girl I can guarentee
I will love you till my last breath
I will love you beyond my death

Verse 4:
This love is like a sweet bottle of wine
It'll only get better in time
And last night you made me believe
Something that I didnt see
You created this maze of emotion for me
So please, from now, just tell me when im wrong
Just tell me whats going on
All you'd have to do, is tell me what I can do
Because I guarentee again, I'm so in love with you,
It's no longer just you and me, even though we're just two,
People in love, we'll go down as one...
Drama at Midnight




　

Gotta Hold On

Verse 1:
Ever wonder whats its like
To drop a lollipop from a building top
And watch it stop, when it hits the ground
Then time haults, you reverse it up to be re-wound
No ricochet affect, just a rebound
Watch the pieces scatter back together
And shoot up like apollo
Maybe it'll hit it's bottom tommorrow
But for now its clock is borrowed
Back into the mans hand
Wrapper strapped with a rubber band
Not afraid, in Eminem's no man land
Drippin from every sweat gland
Cause every notion he will withstand
Banned from the obstacles,
So his closed mind can expand

Hook:
Dont allow your shoulders to fold
When those boulders burn,
From the weight of the world,
Can't ever let go, get a tight grip
Cause you, gotta hold on...

Verse 2:
Standing at a payphone
With Adam Levine
Searching' for service
Trying to phone home in time
Before he cross fine lines, cause
By design, road signs, dont exist in paradise
No distance between right and wrong
Mistakes aren't forgiven in song, and
All exceptions are prolonged,
Exposures of those who feel they dont belong
So its over, before its ever begun
Exactly how the wild west was won
You meet in the middle, and take ur steps back
Instead in this story he draws with my pencil, not his gun.

Hook:
Dont allow your shoulders to fold
When those boulders burn,
From the weight of the world,
Can't ever let go, get a tight grip
Cause you, gotta hold on...

Verse 3:
Its different,
When you pull yourself back
And look at things from a distance
From a different perspective
From a different position
And every prayer that didnt come true
Lookin' at everything from an unsuitable view
Colliding with everything that got in the way,
Cause he was to busy starrin' at the world through his rearview
Now he could be a bad boy like marty mar and big willie, but
He'd rather be the strong silent type, like chinese bamboo
Damn, he had another break through
Epiphany it was, words of the spoken few,
So if you ever mess up, just grab another screw
And replace it with the nail that was once new,
Because everything can be accrued,
And he'll prove, he's the truth....

Ina New Light

Verse 1:
My life was crumbeling around me
Always asking the man above for a sign,
Felt like the ending of times, but
Now everything feels fine
For the first time in my life
All my rainy days are now clear skies
Lifted up so high
Hypnotized by your light
And by the look in your eyes, you were
Holding the faite of my entire world in your hands,
My heart was drowning in the tides
Until you came and rescued me,
Before my colorless hue became "dyed".

Chorus:
If I could sing,
I'd make the melodies mine
Instead this is poetry in the making
As I recite these rhymes
Seein' everything,
Ina New Light

Verse 2:
Stranded on a deserted Island
No food or shelter, and
Just enough sun to get-a-tan
But no sunscreen to shield the rays
Skin was burning, The peals enraged
I was hostile, as I continued to write this gospel
Cause everything I was experiencing was awful
Stuck on the last note of the saddest song
'Till you came and proved me wrong
Now' feelin like the end of an epic journey
Standin' on the highest mountain top in Prague

Chorus:
If I could sing,
I'd make the melodies mine
Instead this is poetry in the making
As I recite these rhymes
Seein' everything,
Ina New Light

Verse 3:
The sea has parted
No need for jargon
One date in, and
Felt as strong as Spartan
Through your nerves
And despite my problems
You broke the vest
From my heart thats hardened
Ya know, the ones that guarded
Still can't believe what's been started
Wading through the depths uncharted
Through the touch of your hand
I knew my sentence had been forever pardoned...

Different Sides of Me

Verse 1:
Drifting down the under-toe
Floating up the streams
Walking down the sands
As the pebbles massage your feet
You see yourself lost at sea
While you're still standing on the beach
For all we know, This could be,
The different sides, of me.

Chorus:
A secret life
Buried underneith
Coming out with the darkness
Forced to believe
The good in us all, comes with deceit.

Verse 2:
Every sentence begins with,
Hello and ends with good-bye
Running and walking, at the same time
One step forward, then two steps back
The only way I've ever known to act
Dreaming while im awake,
Living in my dreams
For all we know, this could be,
The different sides, of me.

Chorus:
A secret life
Buried underneith
Coming out with the darkness
Forced to believe
The good in us all, comes with deceit.

Bridge:
The cloth isn't long enough to be cut from it,
We all can't be angels and demons, Some of us are both,
None of us are perfect..

Verse 3:
It's hard to understand,
When the pain feels so good and alive
Happiness doesnt seem real, seems weird
Caring about everything, and nothin', at the same time
Everything seems foggy, but my eyes are clear
Reaching out to something that seems familiar
Fear is the closest thing near, to the sorrow
Im running out of faces in the mirror
What reflection will I see tommorrow?
Vindicated from my shell,
Yes, I'm aware I'm unwell, but
For all we know, this could be,
The different sides, of me.

Chorus:
A secret life
Buried underneith
Coming out with the darkness
Forced to believe
The good in us all, comes with deceit.

Perfect To Me

You're the only one I see
Even in a crowded sea, of people
Your the only good I see,
When all I see is evil,
You're an open highway
The ideal crusing street
A racetrack in the heavens
So peaceful in belief, and
Even outside my dreams,
You are perfect to me.

When you wear no make up
Your even sexier to me
Nothing can touch your natural foundation
No substitute for true beauty,
Even when your moody,
You're stubborn, yet sincere
A pain in the ass sometimes
But everyday I wish you were here
Cause you're the rarest treasure to find
And I've been lost too, many of times
Searching for a key,
Which is why your perfect to me.

If such a thing is true,
God did right by you
And i'll never let you forget
The perfect radiant creation,
I knew from the first second I met you,
You're every mans wonderland
And John Mayor will understand,
Why I ressurrect his line from the sands,
Of the nearest paradise,
Where I imagine our lives,
In holding each others hands
Like bear hugs around a tree,
You are perfect to me.

You saved me,
I had almost given up on livin'
Until you made me feel somethin'
That I had been missin', and
Finally, my heart was nervous
Cause on the surface,
You were my purpose,
And ill serve it everlasting,
But we may not always get along, but
I'll even let you be right, even when your wrong
Cause sometimes we may disagree,
But this is exactly why your perfect, to me.

You yell but your laughter
Drowns out all the pain
I can tell that it matters,
Seeing your insides rain,
So im sorry Im a screw up,
And made you feel that way
Just shut my mouth and kiss me,
Whenever I have to much to say,
Cause your so precious my dear,
My love, my friend,
And ill be here for you
Until the very end
Cause you are perfect to me.

Careful What You Wish For

Verse 1:
Sittin' stressin'
Worried about the future,
Cause of the past,
Always has me second guessin'
Overanalyze everything
Trust no one or nothin'
Maybe this curse has been a blessin',
But I've lost all faith, but I wish I had it
Lost my prayers, but I wish I hadn't
Cause the voices never shut off
They're an insult to injury
It's like they take all the good things
And make them into my enemy
Can't enjoy the moment,
Without reassurance of the pleasantry.
Maybe its just a chemical imbalance,
That I suffer from mentally,
But I can't let it get to the next stage of extremity.

Chorus:

So be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do with it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

Verse 2:
I was losing my freedom
There was no where for me
To not go and be seen
And just go and be me
And there was no in-between
You either loved it or hated me
Now I know that he died for our sins,
But I didnt ask 'em to,
How would you do? If I took a bullet for you
Would you start to worship me?
For eternity? I dont think so...
I just dont get it, I believe in a higher power
But im not sure I meant it
or meant that, or meant this
It's all just confusing when your thoughts are so relentless. 
They press against the brain,
Someone please stop 'em, they're driving me insane
I dont feel his prescence
I dont feel is love
I dont hear his essence
And all the churches do is shove
Im uncomfortable with what they say
It all sounds make believe,
But I just wanna feel like it'll all be ok,
I want my mind at ease.

Chorus:

Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do with it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

Verse 3:
This isn't what I wished for
This isn't how I envisioned it
Pain to the point of imprisonment
Thought this shit would be different
I just wanted a little bit, but it
Turned me into a hypocrite, but
Where do they come from?
My EEG's are normal,
They only thing that helps me,
Are CD's and epidurals
Transferrance to Transferral
A Nuerological disorder
In chronological order
Would result in bein lost in his tracks
To leaving my trust rope shorter,
And I've already told you guys a thousand times
In these rhymes, I may not be right in the mind
But whether I believe or not, if he exist
Then he's on my side
And its been one hell of  ride...

Chorus:

Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do with it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

 

Circles

Verse 1:
It's like a rollercoaster ride, With all the ups and downs
One minute your on ground, next your going around
Hands up and you dont know why, the loops at the speed of sound
You feel free for a second, then feel like its all crashing down
You scream as your hair hits your face as you see it's brown,
Only thing I know, Is that it's gravity holding us down
And at the top of it all, you look over the entire town
And you realize how small you are in this worldly bound,
Trapped as one entity, like a wind up doll being wound,
Are we really in control? Or shall we ignore the surrounds?
If theme park rides had a rearview pointed towards the sky,
We'd see the world passing by, not in front of us, but behind...

Chorus:
You just keep running,
Circles in my head
When the outsides sunny,
My insides dead
And you just keep running,
Circles in my head

Verse 2:
Speaking of circles, you see the ones beneath the eyes?
Is sleeping just a waste of time? When nothing appears fine?
Your thoughts are unpredictable, they're always on trial
Had god blessed this broken road, why have I been walking for miles
All those memories, I guess I missed thoughs,
Do we ever get what we wish for?
Do we ever get what we pray for?
Standing in a crowded empty room behind seven closed doors,
Music coming from every direction, I can hear the severed chords,
Broken strings play within their means, pain has left them sore

Chorus:
You just keep running,
Circles in my head
When the outsides sunny,
My insides dead
And you just keep running,
Circles in my head

Verse 3:
They can take the cloths, off my back
They can take my money, dont care about that
Just dont take my words, it's all I got
You can take my faith, it ain't worth alot,
Cause this is how I do,
Paranoid like Howard Hughes,
And like your satellite radio, Im serious
I'll be the end of discussion, and thats period
Cause in the face of defeat, ill decline
And redefine what it's like to grab the hands of time,
And redesign that Monaco, Cause Im still in my prime,
Back and forth like circles, can't even think straight
They didnt add up, even with life at stake
We're all in the same boat, tryna stay afloat in the moment,
This time around, im gonna own it...

Epic Evolution

Intro:
If you're like me, you have trouble moving on from the past,
And continue to live in it, despite you knowing the consequences of such,
Sometimes it takes the write words to spark your determination,
And suddenly, instantly, you become inspired,
To not only grab hold of your issues, and vanquish them
Not for them, Not for her, Not for anyone
But yourself, in the search of future happiness,
All alone, on the conquest of epic evolutions...

Verse 1:
As I walk through the valley of the shadow of doubt
The root origins planted deep to defeat the drought
I'm takin back to the old days
Without a drawn-out plan to route about,
But now, the age of evolution is amongst us
Forsakin' paths of the less Riteous
To slay any biblical giant,
As I David your mythical Goliath
For this new commencement is on-set
Showtimes to offset and onslaught the gauntlet
So cliche but Imma crash this new beginning
Accomplished another perfect mistake,
Shown my way to another bridge to take,
Even though its always the same road I stake,
Constructing a dam in case the river breaks,
Like the way the words natalie like water in black swan lake,
They Shake like earthquakes,
Destined to slither up and over-snake, Drake

Chorus:
In Pursuit of,
An Epic Evolution
The process of,
Letting Go,
Of the way I've always been,
An Epic Evolution

Verse 2:
Ever feel like giving up, Like nothing has its worth
And sometimes you just feel, Like being 6 feet under dirt
The way you arent feeling, Is the way that you deserve
To be treated by the occupance, Amongst you on this earth
The poison in your brain, It changes on reality
To miscontrue your thoughts, as to what is truly happening
You feel ur walls closing in, your trapped inside a room
With no sunlight inside, to let your inner flower bloom
With thoughts of negativity, you've lost that silver lining
You bang ur head against the wall, just try and clear your mind
But none of this is working, your suffer inflicts of pain
It helps just for a moment, so you do it all again
Scared to let the people know, you try to hide your scars
With smiles on your face, with pain inside your heart
No one understands you, You're ready for goodbye
I hope this song reaches you, Before you end your life...

Chorus:
In Pursuit of,
An Epic Evolution
The process of,
Letting Go,
Of the way I've always been,
An Epic Evolution

Verse 3
Maybe I've been way to high
A star up in the sunlite sky
Astronomy of the planets in the universe
Reflect the oceans waves along the tides
Or maybe I've been to blind
To understand the brail and the mimes
It's all I can do to take one day at a time
Cause the futures gettin' intertwined
With the plans I've set out to design
Through hard work and determination
Struggles and perseverance, escapes, an
Ancient turn of events
Of reluctance consequence
And un-nurtured circumstance
Lets stack the hand you've been dealt
Sittin on the couch aint gonna cut it
No matter how lazy you've felt,
Turn your cold into warm,
Even if its shop worn,
Fighting monsters like in Space Jam,
Can't be afraid to be adored,
When you hear the sirens calling
Dont ignore the horn,
Lets not get so lost we lose our identity,
Yeah I said it before, like Jason Bourne
So in essence we can no longer mourne,
The swords that have uplifted the spirits
Bite down and bear it, like it's a carrot.

Chorus:
In Pursuit of,
An Epic Evolution
The process of,
Letting Go,
Of the way I've always been,
An Epic Evolution

Verse 4:
When I look to the sky
All I hear is hollowed wood
As the forecast passes by,
Lost in L.A, guess thats why they call it Hollywood,
It's been a full day now,
It's official, I accept it
So lets go back to when I was stealin rhymes,
To knee deep in the cement,
Reycled lyrics were line after line, it
Was such an easier time in my mind,
But fuck it, lets accept this extraction
Never been afraid to hide,
One thing that'll never change,
Is me accepting your favorite lies,
This ain't a new hello, and
This aint good-bye
This is not where the story ends
I know we'll never reconcile,
But I can't be the man I've always been
Maybe in time, the skies will collide
The Conclusion, The Finish, The End.

Chorus:
In Pursuit of,
An Epic Evolution
The process of,
Letting Go,
Of the way I've always been,
An Epic Evolution

Verse 5:
Just kidding, one last verse on the way,
I wanna go and give a message to the ones in pain
Gotta keep pushin on cause time could change
Alot of feelings that you try and hold within yourselves
I promise you I only say this to ensure your health
Because your wanted, although sometimes you feel your not
becuase to someone, you might be all they truly got
I think your beautiful in each and every single way,
I only ask of you that you promise me this time you'll stay
Your smart and clever, you know its not worth the tears
We all have bad days, we all have bad years,
But we just strive so take a grip upon my hand,
We'll hop up out this swirl and take a step upon this dry land,
So come and give a hug, you see the sun shinin'
Come now and wipe them tears, theres no more need for cryin'
I promise better days, I promise lifes to come
The life your livin' is a definite precious one,
So when you feel like life isn't living anymore
How could you be ashamed?
Put that hope back in your mind
Dont have to pray for better days,
Cause you're better off alive
We're all better off alive

Outro:
So I let the anger get the best of me,
The demons won, again...
But no more, never again
It's time to control those voices,
And target them, convey them,
Towards something greater,
Because I will come back,
I will come back swinging with the fury of Iron Mike,
With the speed and timing of  Pretty Boy Floyd,
And with the destruction of The Pacman,
Under the art and teachings of Sun Tzu,
With the intelligence of Ghandi,
All wrapped up in one entity,
I may have lost this battle,
But it's time to go Gorilla on this war,
So get out of my way if you can't take the heat.
Because it's coming like a 'roided up flame thrower on speed.